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Wow bet you thought we weren't coming back?! sorry about that! life has been busy and lots has been going on and well I never felt inspired to sit and write. hope you haven't given up on us completely yet!!!! because I'm BACK!!!!
As my days have passed I have thought oh I have to remember to blog about this later, yet I never seemed to make it here. I'm still not totally inspired so bare with me in this post as I try to find my inspiration. I'm going to start with I guess a update on each of us?!

Bill: has been given some new responsibilities at work so he has had a full plate and has been working xtra hours. he is pretty tired by the time he gets home so weekends right now are Very special to us. They are never long enough!!
Me: well I have been busy with the boys and life nothing super exciting to share, although I do have a few "great" ideas looming so stay tuned.
Both Bill and I have been working on getting healthier and loosing some weight. I wish both of those things were easier to obtain because seriously finding the time to work out just isn't in the plans with two crazy boys. I'm really proud of both of us though because we both have managed to stick to our guns pretty well the month of February.
Bradyn: I almost don't want to type it in fear of jinx's ourselves but Bradyn seems to have turned a corner in the obedience area. There were days a few weeks ago I just didn't know what to do with the kid but Praise Jesus he has had an amazing last few days!!!!! He is such a crack up!! He LOVES going to school & Church and has made quiet a few friends. He is big time into Cars and computer games?! We have to fight him for some computer time these days.
Titus: His new FAVORITE word is NO NO NO. other then that he is seriously blossoming into a great funny kid. still has major mommy DON'T leave me issues but I have a feeling those arnt going anywhere anytime soon! So I have decided to embrace it because I'm sure in just a few short years I'm going to be begging him to hang out with me. Titus has recently started potty training himself. He is NO wear near being completely trained but he tells me he has to go at least once a day sometimes more then that. I think with a little bit of persistence and work on my part he could be trained but well I have been lazy... maybe one of these days Ill get around to it ;)
have I ever told you all how amazingly Blessed I am?! I have the Greatest kids (and husband) on earth, yup that I'm sure of!!!
So I guess Im going to end this here in fear of this looking like the yearly update letters you recieve in Christmas cards. :) Im gonna go off and find some pictures to post Im sure you all would much rather see my BEAUTIFUL children then hear me ramble!!!

Happy Valentines to My Wife

Because I love you so much....I do anything, even public embarrasement! Thank you for all your love, consideration, admiration, trust and laughter. I love you! Bill

Trusting in Him

I have for months now been learning so much about how much I dont trust God with my whole life... just when I think Im doing pretty good with trusting I get thrown a curve ball and shown how little I truely do trust. I was reading in my devotional this morning and this totally spoke to me so I want to Share it with you.. Be Blessed!

More that that, We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance and endurance produces character and character produces hope and hope does not put us to shame because Gods love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. Romans 5:3-5

Isn't it true that most of us worry less about whats happening in our lives that about what might happen? We are unnerved at the prospect of illness, a loss, a financial set back. What is it were so afraid of, exactly? We can begin by considering our particular fears, asking "whats is the worst thing that could happen to me if this actually comes to pass?" By engaging in such consideration we can usually get to the bottom of our worry: "I'll be broke" or "Ill end up alone" or "Ill be in physical pain" once weve identified whats making us afraid, we can ask the question again: "whats the worst thing that will happen if I end up broke or alone or in pain?" and then we get to the heart of our fear: " Ill suffer"
None of us wants to suffer, certainly, but sooner or later we all do, we might as well face it. But we dont have to dread suffering because God has a purpose for our pain. And He sets limits on our individual trials too, allowing only what is absolutely necessary to prepare us to desire and to enjoy the life he has in mind for us. But the fact that our dread of disaster pulses in our hearts indicates how little we really want the life God has for us if that life includes suffering.
Living in our particular society, a determined resistance to pain seems only right and normal. In our culture where happiness and personal rights are the supreme good, anything that makes us feel unhappy is diagnosed as the supreme bad. We adopt the thinking of society and wind up confusing the principle of democracy- life liberty and the pursuit of happiness- with the principles of the Bible. which teach that suffering is not our enemy but a friend in disguise.
Because God loves us, he will visit us with this friend as need be. But we do not have to live in fear of it. because all our suffering is controlled by a God who loves us. "Therefore let those who suffer according to God's will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good" (1 peter 4:19) The God who loves us sets limits around whatever might affect us, and all that he allows is designed to shape us for life in his kingdom- now and for eternity. If we choose to understnad and accept that this is the purpose behind all we suffer, we will stop being afraid of dark days.




This is out of the book
"Trust a Godly woman's adornment" by lydia Brownback

Hi Im Jessikah and Im a recovering shopaholic

Bill and I sat down this past week and worked on our budget and laying out our bills in a excel spreadsheet for the year. we do this every January so nothing new. only this time as we sat there we realized how close we really are to buying our first home!! YAY a dream we have had since we got married. but in order to fulfill this dream we really need to keep to budget for the next few months.. and I mean stick to it. We always have had a budget but we never keep to it just sorta keep to it... Im always known for going out and just picking up a few things but justifying but it was on SALE!!! uh hello even sale things add up... and we eat out way more then our budget allows for.
As of Sunday all this is Changing and let me tell you we are only on day 4 of this sticking to our budget penny for penny, and it has been seriously one of the hardest things for me.. I never would have considered myself a shopaholic before but I think I was/am. I cant walk into a store for one thing, without looking at everything and picking up a few more things. I have never left target or walmart with a check less then 40$ until Sunday I went in to buy bill some motrin, and after walking through a couple of unnecessary ailes and having to keep reminding myself NO you dont need that... I walked out of target having spent 3.50$ WOHOOOOOOO
Then yesterday I had to run out to get Titus some new shoes for his Audition today, and I went to like 6 stores didnt find shoes anywhere at least not cute ones, but I found plenty of other CUTE things my boys really could have used.... but I was good only picking up one xtra pair of jeans for Bradyn because they were 4.99 regularly 20$ lol I know I didnt do as good as Im trying to make it sound I did but hey its a start...... from here on out Im not spending money unless the budget allows for it... I know its hard now but next year at this time when Im sitting in my own home I will be so glad I did!!! :) so if Iam out with you for whatever reason DONT tempt me lol, No I will not go to the mall with you, and NO I cant grab sushi for lunch this week!!!!

The most Handsome Boys Ever!!!

The Boys needed to update thier pictures with their agents so Ro took some pictures of the boys yetsreday.... Bradyn was so excited he was going to work, with "my-shelf" (Rochelle) and she let him pick the place... anyone who knows my Bradyn boy knows he is obsessed with trains... so where else but train tracks for his pictures LOL in a few of these shots Bradyn looks 12 seriously seeing flashes of a grown up Bradyn :( He is so Handsome.... and mr Titus man isnt a baby at all... he is so freaking cute... even if his teeth still look funny LOL :) Im blessed with the most beautiful kids of all time... I know I know BIAS mom I am.... but sorry its the truth!!! :) (Thanks Ro for these great pictures :)
Bradyn Noah 3 years old











Titus Landen 16months old

Lesson Learned

Around 3:20am this morning bill and I sat straight up in bed, we were awoken by the sound of a car alarm going off, pretty loud... we both look out the window and couldn't decided if it was our car or not. We have had our car for almost a year now but never heard that sound, we could see the reflection of the beeping lights in the windows of the house across the street. so I jump up and grab my keys and press the buttons all of them, but the beeping kept going. so we decided it probably wasn't our car. a second later the alarm went off, and we saw nothing and heard no one outside. so we both lay back down. in my stomach I kept thinking we should go down and check, but I starting thinking with my mom brain, what if someone is out there with a gun lol by the time I thought maybe we should go down together bill was already off in dream land so I just rolled over and back to bed I went.
6:30am I am woken up by bill running up the stairs, Jess our car was broken into... GET UP.... I sat up and immediately thought omg my purse was in there.... I throw on slippers and out the front door I go.... sure enough our front passenger door window was shattered (how come I didnt hear this it was right below my window) and my beautiful Dooney and Bourke purse, my sister cait got me for Christmas was gone.... along with the nice new sunglasses she got me and my wallet and all its contents not to mention a few diapers wipes cars and bradyns beloved snow train. I get on the phone with the police and bill starts calling our bank and credit cards. within minutes of them breaking into the car they had used all of my credit cards and our debit cards.... Bill was REALLY upset not only had we been violated but he tells me DAILY bring in your purse Jess, and I always say it will be fine. When ever i do bring it inside I always forget when Ileave the next time... bringing it in was just not in my habit. and my family has lived on this street for 20+ years it is a safe area nothing ever happens here... or at least I thought.
Police came and took a report and later came and dusted for prints.... the officer who is helping us out has been so nice and gone the xtra mile really trying to help us out in finding who did this. The police have followed up with survalence cameras and we have a few shots of the people as well as the cars, so Im praying they are caught. but we will see if that really happens. The office brought over the slip one of the guys signed my name on at the gas station, and seeing my name forged really struck a cord with me.. I felt even more violated I guess... not sure how to word it.. but the whole thing sucks...
two of our neighbors heard our alarm go off too and checked it out and saw NO one they have perfect views of the front of our house... so whoever did this, knew what they were doing and did it fast. its sucky because our car was in our driveway on a culdsac i might add...and the purse down on the ground not in sight, so these people were looking through our windows... and who knows how many other windows before picking ours... There was so much more they could have taken, and Im thankful no one was hurt. I have learned my lesson no more anything will be left in my car. I dont feel safe now at a place that has been my safe haven for YEARS..... sucky... I tell you what I have never prayed for someone I dislike so much untill now..... Learn from me Bring in your Purse at night!!!!!!!

is it Febuary yet?

Man I bet you all thought I would never be back?! We have had the sickies here for WEEKS now well really MONTHS... and just as things start to look better for us one of the boys gets sick with something new and shares it with all of us. It has been bad, we have gone as far as cleaning out vents, Filters and Carpets. thinking it was something here at home. but Nothing has done the trick. Bradyn is finally at school today for the Second day this month LOL his teachers were shocked to see him. they thought we left the school. Titus is still sick with a horrible cough but thats IT! it actully seems like an acomplishment to say we only have a cough. Needless to say we have been busy with dr's visits LOTS of laundry and Cuddle time.
Titus gave us a scare last week when he hit his head really bad, and began vomiting. We spent the evening in the ER. He was fine Thank you Jesus. but boy We are ready for January to leave and take all its Germs with it!

Hume Lake part 1

OK here is the start of the HUNDREDS of pictures about to come... I will break them up since I know I will never get to start and finish in one sitting :) Both boys are down for naps right now and there are so many other things I really should be doing, but I know so many of you are stalking me just waiting for our pictures.... ha ha OK maybe not so much, but I still feel like every day I wait the future I fall behind.
So here is our trip to Hume Lake Christian camp
My Sister Jennifer and her family are on staff up there. so when we come up we get the use of all the camp has to offer, eat in the dinning hall and just get a break!
our first day after a long five and a half hour drive, the kids were ready to get out into the snow and play. Titus LOVED it and was eating it every time we turned around. Bradyn and his cousin Elliott just had a blast sledding and throwing snowballs...





After all the playing in the snow Titus was WIPED out he fell asleep in my arms it was hilarious, so when we got back to the cabin and layed him down he didnt move.. of course Bill had some fun with this ;)


But then he came to again and all the kids made a BIG mess and had blast doing so :)


Bed time came and Titus crawled right into his brothers sleeping bag, and tryed convincing us he didnt need to sleep in his crib that night.. nice try mr!! :)


The next Day we celebrated Jades 2nd birthday. she had a Bee party and both my boys loved the headgear :) Happy Birthday Miss Jade!!





after the party on our way to the dinning hall Titus was eating the snow and thought it was so funny when we kept telling him EWWWW YUCK!!! he was in such a silly mood


The view over the lake as the sun was setting

after dinner we all come back to the house and the kids make their usual mess while the big kids are playing some sort of game at the kitchen table

We are wiped out

forgive us for not updating in awhile, right after new years we packed up with most of my family and headed up to Hume lake, my sister Jennifer and her family live up there. so we had a great visit and the kids (big and little) had a blast in the snow.
I have HUNDREDS of pictures I still haven't gone through so give me a few days to recoupe, rest and we will have all our awesome pictures up and be back into the updating ways....

New years eve

News years eve was alot of fun! Bradyn was excited to try to stay up till midnight, which he made it. Titus didnt... maybe next year. Our friends the Rossi's have a party at their house every year, so like tradition we brought in the new year with lots of good food, dancing and great friends!!! Happy new year everyone!!! We pray 2009 is an amazing year for all of you! :)

Bradyn, Titus and daddy dancing the night away...



Me and the love of my life :)
Vola and I

Proof my boys really do love each other :)


Ty and daddy

Happy NEW year :)




My parents came over just in time to bring in the new year :)